All Over The Place

Have you ever been rediculously connected with someone? The kind of connection to where all you have to do is look at them and you know exactly what eachother is thinking. Saying the same things at the same time. This is really common with best friends and such. This is because when two brains are in the presence of one another, they build this connection.

Well with Dylan, it seems like it did not even have to be built. It was almost always there. From the first five minutes we knew eachother. The first thing that we did at the same time was snap... There is no need for the history of the snap :) One of our personal favorites is when we said "pre-laugh" at the same time... Yeah. That isn't even a word... All throughout camp, we would say or do the same things. We were so obviously the perfect match.

Even when we are apart, we still find ourselves doing the same things at the same time. It still amazes me. I feel so lame. I should be used to it... It's been almost ten months. Well, in a week. It just keeps getting closer and closer to a year. Second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, week by week, month by month, and soon, year by year.

We are so in love. It is undeniable. It sounds really cheesy when I say it out loud. But, the moment we see eachother, it triggers something in my head that just makes me feel so happy. I really wish I could describe the feeling... It really is like none other.

Have you ever felt truly secure? So safe and so set on something that nothing in the world can change it? It doesn't have to be when it comes to relationships. Just on person, place, or thing in your life that you have so much confidence that it will always make you happy and that will never change. I guess that is one way to describe how I feel... Just... completely and totally secure.

Ready for a cheese ball moment? Dylan is just one of those people I could never get tired of looking at. I really could just stare at him all day... Sounds kind of weird or creepy, I know. But if you have experienced it, then you know exactly what I am talking about.

Can you imagine having one thing on your mind constantly for ten months? Even if it's something weird like fruit roll-ups... but never being able to get it off your mind because it's like the greatest thing in the world to you. And whether you want to think about it or not, it's always going to be there. I have accepted the fact that Dylan is probably never going to escape my mind, at least not for now. Because, I find myself thinking "hm... haven't thought about Dylan in a while..." Then I immediately start think about him.

It's hard sometimes to keep it all in... Having all of these thoughts and scenarios in my head and trying to keep them in my head. There are a few people that I can pretty openly talk about Dylan with... But I try not to becase then I find it hard to shut up and I don't want to tell people things they aren't interested in. That is one of the reasons I started this blog. If you don't want to read it, you don't have to. And it makes me happy to know that there are some people who care and are interested. :)

Well... this blog was kind of all over the place... I think I will name it that. I just felt like venting various thoughts on the relationship soooo.. hope you enjoyed. :)

-Olivia